things are not right.

i am watching the office right now. season 2. my favorite is jim. and toby. toby is cute. sometimes i am attracted to older men. anyways, i'm sure everybody loves jim. i think jim and i would be great friends and we could have some good conversations.

there is a lot of desire and tension there. but. not. there are lots of good moments there. good moments. like. pam leaving 7 messages on jim's voicemail. like just being there. a friend. a nice friend. like just being there. and when you think it's not there. it is.

today, i remembered how much i love life.!!
and then later, i remembered